Being Me. By John von Daler
In daily life this can be seen in the way I walk (like a harnassed road-runner keen on getting the race under way) or in the way I eat (like a starving fugitive whose food could be stolen at any moment). These are things with which I have learned to coexist, not in a godlike way, but as a subject who has ceased to be aware of his own subjugation.
However, playing the violin has always put this uneasy truce between my nature and my aspirations to a severe test.